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amazing, God, god loves me, god loves you, hate, heartbreak, issues, life, lonely, love, love yourself, relationships, rise, soul search, trials and tribulations, wreck, wrecked
God Only Knows. But what if he was too late ? What if you feel like you are already a wreck. What if you feel as if you are at rock bottom, at a point where you already have been torn apart by life. Let alone by the people that surround you. What are we to do? How am I supposed to feel right now? How do I get out of this bottomless pit that I feel I am in? I need God in my life more than ever. I need him to guide me out of this ugly path that I am in. I need Him to give me the strength to put myself together again and be righteous. I have fallen, I acknowledge that, but now that I want to pick up the pieces and go on with my life I feel like I am stuck. I am unable to move. I feel as if I can only pivot my feet, going in circles. Never actually able to take a step forward. Maybe I am living in the past. Maybe I am dwelling on insignificance. Whatever it may be that has been pulling me backward instead of pushing me forward has to end today. I need to take control of my life and let God into it. Let him come in and save me. Save me from this dark place I have not been able to get myself out of. Let me be completely happy again. Let me be myself again because I am not myself. I haven’t been for several years now and I refuse for this person that has taken over me to be me. I lay here and reflect. What if I am not yet wrecked ? What if I just feel that I am broken. I feel that I cannot help myself right now but one day soon I can. What if He did wreck my plans right before I was going to be broken. What if I am who I need to be. What if I am not someone else. What if I am me. What if I’ve changed? And I will never be who I was before. The thought alone kills me.